I look over my posts to this blog and I am thinking that I sound like a whiner.
Let me toss a couple thoughts out.
First, I may be a whiner but, I think this really is a difficult ministry. I don’t honestly know why I had any thought it wouldn’t be.
Second. I want to spend my life in a way that matters. Worrying about E and what he will do next is not something that matters. Arguing about sugar packets is not something that matters.
I spent years and years and tens of thousand dollars equipping myself to serve in a significant way, yet these meaningless things make me wish I could just spend the rest of my days as a greeter at walmart. I actually wouldn’t be that good at greeting. Perhaps I could be one of those guys that sits in a toll booth and reads books while he waits on cars to come by.
Maybe I am a whiner.
A good friend of mine said, “if you can do anything other than ministry, do.”. For years i didn’t think I could. Now I wonder.