On the floor of my office are 3 unpacked boxes. They have been there for almost a year.
On my shelves are books. They are un-arranged. They have been so for almost a year.
The drawers of my desk are nearly empty, with only a few pens rattling around in there. They have been that way for almost a year.
The reason is simple. I never know when this thing is going to be over. Just when I think I might have feet under me, they are kicked out. Just when I think I am about ready to get out and wave goodbye, something happens that it doesn’t come to pass.
God, what am I doing here? Should I unpack? Should I arrange books? Should I fill my desk? Should I go find boxes?
God, I don’t know your plan. I know I am ready for your plan to be just a teeny, tiny bit clearer.
My heart is heavy for you. I had so hoped things would be better by now. I’ll keep praying for you.