Shame

I moved here from a good church.  It wasn’t perfect, and we were ready for a change, but it was a good church.  The people loved us.  The church was healthy.

Today, my wife asked if I had called B, a friend from the church.  He is an elder and a good friend.  We served together for a decade and he knows me and my ministry as well as anyone on the planet.  Have I called him?  No.  Not for a couple months.

The reason?  Simple.  I am ashamed.

I am embarrassed to call him and tell him the ministry here is in trouble.

I know.  I know. I know this is not my fault.  I know this a poison elder damaging a good church.  It just feels so much like a failure.

I can’t call.

About shepherd

I am a pastor at a local church.
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4 Responses to Shame

  1. anon says:

    you should call. i know you know the answer to the question already — but, if the shoe were on the other foot, would you want your friend to call you?

    at the least, your friend could affirm your call to ministry and pray with/for you.

    hang in there, bro’.

  2. Todd says:

    Shepherd,

    If the elder is as you describe. Call.

  3. vernon says:

    I seem to remember somebody yelling at me when I didnt call. Who was that? oh wait! IT WAS YOU! I was ashamed too, and you helped me survive through it. Let B help you. It’s what we do remember? We help each other.

  4. richard hood says:

    Call him,my brother.
    or me. someone.
    we are family.

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